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DREAM JOURNAL

i have a lot of nightmares, sensitive content will be prefaced as such. also a lot of these contain typos because i write them quickly...i probably won't fix them but i feel like i should warn you

dream one

i made some stupid animation with dancing cats and it got like 100k views and people were hearlding it as some "revivial of old animation memes" and i got a ton of super nice long paragraphs. the video started with a collage of random images and it just had furries doing the carmelladansen dance.

dream two (gross dental stuff)

for context im missing a permanent tooth my baby tooth just never came out, so in this dream i lost my baby tooth. which i wasn't that phased by. but after that i pulled out three of my molars and they had this root growing out of them. gross.

dream three (elevator + drowning)

we were in a pool and for some reason it was full of marine life. i went in the elevator and it fell to the lowest floor and filled with water. this was also msot certanily set in a furry convention.

CONTENT WARNING FOR PARANOIA & SCOPOPHOBIA

My friend was showing me these youtube videos of song remixes, this specific one was titled "BEST OF [remix artist?] 2019!!", meaning of course it was not updated live. I made some comment to my friend and the video fully sampled what i said in to the song not even a minute later. Originally thinking this was some weird coicidence, I didn't think much of it but it KEPT on happening, and clearly had far too much control over the laptop. They could quickly exit but it definitely was controlling their microphone and camera afterwards.

I dont fully remember how this happened but under the guise of 'freedom from being watched' someone approached me and offered me a position at the organization that runs these videos. This not something i explicitly agreed to and I very quickly realized they were monitoring me even further after this interaction. In a panic, I covered my webcam with a bit of polymer clay (for some reason). This prompted an aggressive red screen to fill my laptop warning me about my defiance, and notifying all organization members of it. I ran to another friendand tried to warn him, he seemed confused. I looked through his stuff and found a locket witha microphone embedded in it. The organizationwas clearly notified about me finding this microphone and multiple people ran in to the room with weapons in hand.

I escaped through the window in to a golf cart I couldn't drive and barely made it to some sort of craft fair. I ran out, and saw the group run after us. They pretended not to notice us, continuing to closely and very visibly follow us. We went to an open house at school for a specific grade level, which let us go in without them behind us. I was incredibly anxious the entiretity of this time, making everyone very annoyed about how 'paranoid' I was being.

We were all huddled in the upper floor of the building, I saw someone with cool hair that I complimented . As well as someone else with a garfield jacket. This put me at ease for a while. For some reason, one of my friends decided to click on a weird link that was very clearly related to the people who had been chasing us. On the website linked to this was many strange mini-games that were taunting the user about exiting the webpage. The only one I remember specifically was one where mario would follow your cursor as you moved towards the 'x' button and run in to objects and scream incredibly realistically in pain.

Garfield Jacket ran up to me all excited about seeing "Domick's Web" on someones laptop, seemingly farmiliar with the website. They instructed me through a lot of these mini-games. I tried to open task manager but everything I typed was just question marks. I never could exit the website, the dream just came to end.

i was at school and i was wearing this garfield t shirt, i slowly look around to see more and more people carrying garfield merchandise and wearing garfield clothing. i find out someone was actually selling this merchandise. before i even realized, the school became a garfield themed convention. a tv pointed at me nd my friends and i posed in front of it (it was like a grocery store camera tv like we were in it). i particularly remember this weird squishmallow material long garfield. i dont think this exists irl but i want it to

[there may be more before this but it's hard to recall] a discord server i frequent was being reformatted by some people i didn't know. with a fancy gradient background and a mess of emojis, this made me very upset. I ended up going to a bar to take my mind off of it. in the window i saw my friends talking around a table, i went up to the table to greet them but as soon as they looked at me they vanished. i moved from table to table, continuing seeing them. I couldn't recall any of their names which was very frustrating and the reason i assumed they keep vanishing. I quickly opened a back door in search for them. the door opens to my bedroom from when i was a kid, child me sitting on the bed inside. in shock, i closed the door and ran home.

this was not my actual house, it was moreso a maze of like, dark oak stairs and weird rooms. I have the same issues with suddenly dissappearing people, but this time the people disappearing are different versions of my current self. I finally find my dad on the top floor, he is saying what is basically nonesense. He points out the window at a train crashing in to an invisible wall on loop. He mentions that someone i know is in danger with that train.

distressed by this information, i try to leave the house, this is very difficult because of the way the house is structured. I continue seeing the versions of me, but one specific one stays after I look at it. this 'me' is wearing a gray wig and spraying themselves with fake blood. they allow me to exit the house, in the process they run in to a woman and lose their wig. this causes them to split in to two 'me's yet again, one in the gray wig and one covered in blood. Blood covered me did not share my name though, their name was something like 'jerome' or 'jared' . all three of us fought over who would be pushed under the train (which i assumed would break the loop of my friend being killed) gray wig me jumped on my back. I said "won't this kill both of us?" they went "i know" and blood-covered pushed me in front of the train. I woke up.